A redditor sums up the experience of relapsing:
https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/bp621s/life_after_qutting_nofap/
>I was afraid of people seeing me, which never happened when I was on Nofap.
>Exercise frequency fell to a new low, from working out everyday to only twice
a week. Even then, it took so much willpower to get out of the house.
>my most hated enemy - the brain fog, was back. It clouded my thinking and
followed me like a shadow, always putting a veil over my eyes so I couldn't see
the happiness and joy of people around me. My mind just wasn't as sharp and
snappy as it used to be and I felt my brain was becoming "laggy".
>For some reason when I started fapping, it felt as if the joy in me had fled
like a frightened child who saw a ghost.
>became less happy, and my old demon of depression came knocking on my door. I
felt the familiar gloominess everyday when I woke up, and this carried on for
the rest of the day.
<TFW you capitulate in spiritual warfare and are dispirited because of it
Once you've drawn the line in the sand, you cannot then cross it without paying a certain penalty. This penalty may or may not include being beset by ghosts and demons, and a thickening of the veil which separates us from primordial truth.
As for me, I've been ramping up my fitness routines in preparation for spring and trying to optimize T-level. I wondered in the OP whether nofap and meditation could synergize in some big way, and it seems like with practice that might be the case. I base that on how differently my body works lately. Endurance and recovery times like I've never experienced.
Meditation is supposed to be good for your t-lPost too long. Click here to view the full text.