/nofap/ - Fappers Anonymous

>>18088

I now care about politics, not elections: handshakes with people I can really meet and stick with.

I now care about business. I care about such meticulous practice and theory now I want others to zap out of the lull I was in taking it easy.

>3d

>waifu

keckles

you normalfags deserve to be unhappy

>>12778

giving you a more detailed reply today

>I understand how love is a concept

>chemical

>hormonal

you can call it whatever you want

when it happens it happens, the heart wants what it wants and you will know it

>Quote from another thread: "Sex is meant for procreation only. no matter how bad the urge is, you will know in your heart that this is true."

god created man to shit in the open

and yet we build toilets and sewers and water treatment facilities

>I don't want love, society told me I should want it, and my hormones helped associate their pull with the rationale behind love.

to be loved back is nice and dandy but to love is a necessity in life

if you do not love anything or anyone, you are literally wasting your life

doesn't have to be a person, it can be a hobby or your profession or whatever you love

without love there is no passion, without passion everything you do is half assed and crappy

>Reality is the biggest letdown, how can anyone say that reality is better than fantasy?

real life is a game with shitty story but great graphics. you know the saying

>I prefer dreaming of falling in love than actually falling in love and later falling out of it or getting my heart broken.

because you have an infantile concept of love in your head from disney movies and fairy tales.

which are made by men who are equally childish and overly emotional like you are.

it is not wrong to have this perception about how world should be. you just need to understand you do have those and that they are infantile and unrealistic. understand your mind, understand yourselfPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>18148

part II

>This path is dangerous because porn is also a big part of my fantasy land.

porn is not the culprit here per se. everyone needs some inspiration from time to time. the problem with porn is that you dopamine junkies cannot stop pushing the porn button and overdose day after day until your dicks are incapable of getting erect to normal stuff so you go deeper and deeper into perversions and fetish crap.

you need to reduce the amount of pron but increase the emotional quality you get from it. why not imagine some romantic fap session with that girl you are crazy after. rather have 2 of those sessions per week then endless porn orgies with eyeball licking fetishism

and for the porn addiction. you must find something else to do all day long. find a hobby or find an art or craft you can master

it will give you fulfillment if you do it every day and see your own progress. you are a porn addict because you have no other source of dopamine in your life anymore.

>The sad alternative is abandon everything that is associated with love, and live alone, celibate, in real world as well as in my dreams. Abandon everything, daydreaming while listening to music, movies, books, strip everything that is not the product of my rational mind. This emptiness I feel imagining this scenario is scary.

yes do that and you will become a zombie, spree killer, terrorist or the next hitler.

you must love. love gives us fulfillment. it can be someone or something you love

but when you forsake love, you forsake life too

>What am I supposed to do with my life now? When I listen to music, half of it is about love, so it's just fake now, half of movies are about love,

how can you not enjoy songs about love. when I listen to ed sheeran i always rejPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>18149

part III

>I won't play all those video games on my list,

games are waste of time anyways. learn a craft, a trade, master an art whatever but don't waste enless money and time on nothing

it is okay to play half an hour per day or for 3 hours a week in one session. or if you have a favorite game to be online every now and then

but that is to cool down after a stressful week and refill your energy again so you can do interesting things again

>I won't have my waifu to keep my mind company.

why not, nobody prohibits you from imagining her doing stuff with you

as long as you don't get a psychotic episode and jump from the balcony because you thought she wants to stab you to death because you fapped to another anime girl

>I'm so sad that love is not real that I'm crying.

love is real for millions of people, you just never experienced it because you were either too much of a scary cat or not worthy of a relationship.

or do you think the songs and movies are all fake? maybe some are fake but not all can be fake. especially the emotions cannot be faked

you see the thing is, in real world, love always comes with conditions. that is what you call the "dating up" thing.

so you can either become a winner and work on some characteristic that makes you special or cry for the rest of your life that you are not worth of love.

it is your free choice

>I wanted to become a director, but now I realize I would be making fake stuff that I don't believe in.

that was a great dream. why did you give up?

imagine quentin tarantino was once a nerd like you are. in fact he still is. he is a foot fetish faggot and he does not even try to hide it.

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>>10356

I fail to understand what further clarification you need.

>>6460

I got a waifu.

I doubled my streak immediately.

I think some help and some don't.

Waifus definitely help. What's the question? So strange

Good afternoon. In fact, I always do this in any difficult situations. I just go to a dating site https://coomeetrussian.com/ and I communicate with girls via video chat. It helps me to distract myself, relax and just relax a little. Then I gather my thoughts and solve my problems.

>>6460

>Are waifus an aid to quitting masturbating or are they a trigger?

Let me ask you a question.

That hypothetical girl you have.

Does she hypothetically have a stomach?

Is she capable of hypothetically getting hungry?

If she is a girl does she hypothetically have ladies parts between the legs?

Can those hypothetically tingle?

You see where this is going?

>For me, there are times when I'm not entirely sure about my waifu. I can't stand the thought of forcing my waifu to do extremely lewd things,

>force

>extremely lews perversions

This is your problem dude. you don't need eyeball licking to get to climax.

Why don't you just imagine tender sex of a couple that loves each other deeply. If you fulfill her wishes, what would be wrong about it?

What you people in general don't understand is that it is not fapping per se that is the problem. Your dick is designed to fuck as many females and impregnate as many of them as possible in as short time as possible because living expectation of homo sapiens in the african savannah was 25 years at best. Shooting out sperm is even beneficial to your prostate IIRC.

The problem of most of you is is that jacking off is the sole source of dopamine in your life. And you are pusing that dopamine button without a stop. you are the equivalent of a junkie.

you need to find something else in life that will give you fulfillment

Also since you fap all day long you need more degenerate porn to even get your dicks hard.

You need to get off this circle and reduce quantity of fap but increase the emotional quality of it.

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>>2515

>>2555

It sounds like succubi to me. Sometimes they are just coming in dreams in appearence you like. They are taking your energy and pushing you to sin. Something simmiliar happened to me about a year ago. I red on some website, that is important to cry out Jesus name loud and break all truces with evil forces in his name. It actually worked that's how I became a christian .

Ashamed to confess it but bestiality

For me, it's women fainting. I get turned on by the idea of supposedly competent and professional women loosing composure and needing a male peer to save them. Fainting, to me, represents the ultimate loss of control and plays well into my damsel-in-distress fantasies. I used to fap to old movie posters, photos of women on fainting couches or stretchers and clips of women fainting from movies. I still get turned on whenever I find a reference to a woman fainting in a medical or documentary context. It doesn't happen often, but when it does I get all sorts of lustful feelings. I've always been infatuated by the idea of a beautiful woman literally falling into my arms. In real life, or course, I've only had a handful of girlfriends, and those relationships never seem to last long. Getting to carry them a short distance is the closest I've gotten to fulfilling this fantasy.

>>17848

>Ashamed to admit it but bestiality

Animal pornography? At the very least it's something hardcore, so I'd think it would be easier to avoid than most.

A chick with toned legs and clean, athletic looking feet (no painted nails tho that shit is gross) will fucking end any and all resolve I have. And if she's tiny and asian that's it. Fucked a girl at a massage parlor a few months back who let me suck her toes and it was a goddamn dream.

hypergamy.

because you faggots are spending your free time lamenting on the internet instead of having courage and talk to girls

fearfulness / weakness in males is like obesity in females

the one thing that will never be forgiven

Impregnation, Lolicon, NTR, Gangbang. In that order and occasionally combined. I tried nofap and that lead me to craving real CP due to the immense PMO pangs I was having. Best thing I ever did was catch some on edenchan and realized that there was a spark of decency deep inside me.

Immediately lost the pangs and felt disgusted with myself. Since then I've been weaning myself off porn, starting by cutting out the lolicon and its working. I feel more and more disgusted everytime I do it, and it excites me less and less.

Hell for a long period of time I couldn't even get off to porn that wasn't drawn and extremely degenerate. But now I can easily do so, and further prevent myself from hitting the cursed shit.

I wish I had started before I became an adult, as PIED has kept me a closet virgin for a few years now, and its clear that lolicon is no longer tolerated even by the internet. (And the internet tolerates a lot of degenerate shit).

But I see a light at the end of the tunnel.

I think I can beat this.

>>18085

Im going to shoot someone guys when I get to the Laundromat Im going to EXPLODE (with cum)

ok then I will use this as confession/journal I guess.

I am tired and I think I am fucked beyond repair. I have had sex twice in my life, once with a bimbo looking escort who was riding me pretty rough and was actually hurting me so she stopped and simply jacked me off while I sucked her tits. And also a girl I met once on Tinder who was clearly desperate, we actually had a good time but I couldn't cum at all…

I can't seem to break away from my desires, the way I envision myself, what truly deep down brings me pleasure. I don't enjoy being alpha or dominant, I feel it comes off cringy from someone like me, I am 5'4 average, with a very nerd looking dude, I am already 33 and have nothing to bring to the table for a healthy partner in a relationship. I also struggle with the idea of taking charge and leading with masculine energy.

Ever since I can remember I had feared growing up and becoming a man, I have dreaded it to the point that I fantasized becoming a little kid again, even a baby. That eventually made me solidify my desires with my sexual awakening and fucked me up so deeply that today I am a very strange "adult". Some people might have heard of autonepiofilia, infantilism or abdl, the thing is, for me, arousal comes from someone taking care of me, showering me with unconditional love and making me feel cherished, protected and adorable… I dont want to be HOT I want to be CUTE for a girl, I want to generate in them a motherly instinct so they will take over, it has been all my life like this so of course I have never have had a relationship being driven by sexual fetishes away from more healthy bonds.

I got into erotic hypnosis as well big time, going to bed while playing subliminal messages, getting files that promised me to become more like a baby, even fuck up my genitals and receive pleasure from wetting uncontrollably in a diaper (I wish this was a lie). Although I got really little progress, the little progress, even today, compels me to keep trying to achieve the full experience. Removing body hair, being incontinent, unable to achieve erections, the internet will provide support for even your wildest and most fucked up desires yet.

Sex

>>18103

sup CIA stalker… What a fucking loser you are. I'd love to meet you face to face, bitch

had the same problem. i had wet dreams every day and sometimes twice a day

the thing is i was sexually stimulated by my thoughts and females i saw IRL

you need to master your thoughts

I've had some very realistic wet dreams when I was a fapper and I haven't had any since I started nofap, so don't think there's any correlation.

supplements are a meme. fucking faggot. even with zinc. yes. you heard me. faggot

you're also a liar, you did not in fact have had more sexual urges and more energy caused by zinc. you can tell yourself that, but not to the most redpilled community of gamma radiation grinding horse shoelace chewer anons out there

even your mom has mustache on her toes

>>8830

The shrinkage is reversed though after you get blood back into it a few times.

Honestly have considered getting one just to beat this once and for all.

>>8623

You could be a porn actor

>>8601

>literally having big balls equates to also figuratively having big balls

>but dont actually make your balls literally bigger though, you dont need that. it's better if you just pretend

>>9653

I've been witholding the fap this way with fasting but goddamn it am I skinny

>>8784

kill yourself

bump

>>17493

>am I fucked

It's not black and white. Everyone is kinda fucked; most have the same experience as you, especially if they're under 40. The phenomenon is basically worldwide.

Don't worry too much about how you got here, though. You are what you are, and you have to live in the present, so focus on making the right decisions in the present. There's always a better and a worse outcome for your choices. Resisting useless and self-destructive temptations strengthens the will, which tends to be the "fucked" part of the brain.

>>17862

probably, since masturbation lowers test and test affects how big the amygdala grows

>>17823

You'll never get forgiven because you're a kikejew faggot.

"If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn't do it, it is sin for them."

>>17762

Thanks for being so understanding, one thing that I've realized by rereading my post, is that I got the impression that I was trying to justify my self-abuse and degenerate behaviour because of past experiences. Although at this moment I am not practicing no-fap, I've gone back to my home country and I have gotten closer to my roots, which unequivocally has reinstated some masculinity in me.

To make a long story short, I think one of the biggest faults that people make is to seek self improvement only when they are practicing no-fap, which can be very detrimental when you relapse.

>You've got to get after the future and not let the past weigh you down.

Inadvertently, by always thinking my past mistakes, I've had the luxury to get to know in specificity my faults, but also where my strengths lie, I've built up confidence from withing not only through no-fap and I think I'm ready for the long haul.

>>17787

>Three things happen when you get injected with the Fallen light. 1. You Abuse yourself 2. You abuse Others 3. You take the Negative Energy and transform it in a Positive Energy

One thing that I think has helped me a lot is this statement you made. Furthermore, I think I can rest easier than most because I've never directed my abuse towards others.

As I'm writing this, being in my homeland for the first time in over a decade, it helped me reflect on the vanity I've had when I'm living in the western world. Mind you we have our faults, but here there is no other options for a man but to conduct himself in a proper masculine manner. The things that would take weeks of no-fap to have, like walking up with your head high, squaring your shoulders, being more assertive or social have come more easily here because people dont let that shit slide here.

Although, I did not see the value of having a connection with God initially, I think that he is the only path for redemption, the only path for hope and the thing that will save me from my past and light up a new path for everyone.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

I've been doing a lot of self-reflection about how porn has fucked me up bro, and you're not the only one going through shit like this. I'm even afraid to think how many people are having the same experiences.

The problem with porn is that you always need to find something new to feed the addiction. You start off with stunning looking girls, but soon that's not enough, so you move to old, ugly, obese cunts, d/s, hardcore d/s, a long list of fetishes, but that's not enough. Then comes the scat, piss but it's not enough. You then have the choice of either going illegal (bestiality, underaged, rape, other shit that will get you jail time in many countries), or going legal but up-to-that-point completely disgusting to you. Usually that's fags, sissies, trannies, etc. Now suddenly you've turned from a reasonably healthy straight male, as nature intended, into a phycological faggot, because you can easily get hard watching the new fag stuff, yet the old girl stuff just doesn't cut it for you.

It's not long before you're taking pics of yourself dressed up and chatting up guys online.

I've never met guys for sex, but I was mentally ready to go and enjoy it, despite being married.

Believe it or not, when I arranged a first meet, Jesus Fucking Christ came to me in my sleep and told me it's all devil's work.

Fuck me, I don't even believe in the guy and here he is fucking talking to me. After a bit of a shock I cancelled the meet, threw away the sissy clothes before mrs found out and managed to stay away from it for a whole 18 months, then back to the same shit.

Cancelled the second meet too, but this time because I've realised that I won't be able to look my kids in their eyes if I went off fucking men on the side.

But I wanted it not because I was ever attracted to men, but because of the self-destructive, degenerate nature of the act. And these desires were built up by years and years of porn.

So, although your case is quite a bit more fucked up than mine, there's got to be a way for you going forward.

Can't give you any advice on religion bro - my imho is that shit exists to fuck up your mind, almost like porn does.

First of all stop feeling shit about what happened. That's in the past dude. Everyone does things they regret later in life. If you never went down the porn->fag route, you would have done other shit that you'd be feeling sorry for right now. Relax and think about the future. Porn would have got to you in other ways too. Instead of being ashamed about fucking guys, you'd feel ashamed about wanting to fuck underaged girls, animals or some other shit.

Second, break the PMO cycle if you're on it. For good. Because if you come back to PMOing, you're back in the "porn novelty" spiral and back to self-destructive behaviour.

Once you're free from PMO, your head should clear.

Don't try and repress the faggy feelings inside you. They are not really faggy feelings. They are porn addiction.

You're not missing out on anything by not being an ugly-tranny-faggot-fucker. In fact you're not and have never really been an ugly-tranny-faggot-fucker because you were doing all those things while trying to get yet another high to feed the porn addiction.

You're a porn addict. And porn addiction manifests itself in constant search for novelty, no matter how disgusting.

Understand the porn addiction, kill the porn addiction, get back to having a life.

>>18070

OP here to just to clarify