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I see, thanks for sharing.
I want to defend therapy a little. Imagine this: you really love being a therapist, you care about the people you're helping even if they're strangers to you at the beginning, and you want to help as many people as much as possible. Therefore, you decide to do it full time. But now you have no time for a side job to earn a living, so you must take money for your sessions.
Are they actually in for the money in practice? Yeah, especially if their price is high. But also, the majority of therapists do care about their clients. Of course they care less than your friends or family, but consider this: a therapist or psychiatrist is just a special kind of doctor. You don't really need the doctor to care about you as long as they cure (or at least treat) your condition. And most of them want to do a good job at least.
Much of the therapy success comes from your own attitude, what you want to get from it, what you want to accomplish, etc. Have you read about it? It should be the therapist's job to explain this to you, but you know how it is in practice - you often have to take the lead when it comes to your health. It's also very common to "not click" with the therapist, in that case you just look for new ones until you have a good match.
I'm trying to convince you because in situations like yours, it's virtually impossible to pull yourself by your own bootstraps. You need help from others, and your family doesn't seem to provide it (from what I gathered), and you don't have a close friend, so therapy may be your only option.
Your attitude is really important as well. I can speak from my own experience: I was stuck for several years in my addiction before I genuinely accepted help from my parents. Of course I dreamed about success, but now in hindsight I see that I feared that even if I tried my best, I could fail. So effectively, I didn't try at all and sat in the comfort of my perceived victimhood, grasping at every excuse why it was impossible for me to actually try my 10Post too long. Click here to view the full text.