No.81772 [View All]
I'm going to open abortion chinics
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No.81851
>>81847
The war is about not being alone.
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No.81852
>>81846
If on shore it means carrying hoses and turning valves with help from others and just doing what you're told to do i.e. turn this valve, open this thing, hook up this to that etc at the lower levels.
Math only comes in later, anyone can do this work and you learn while you do it and show competency then they'll teach you more and you get pay raises.
>>81850
Ah Maddie never knew you got thicc.
That's a surprise
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No.81853
>>81850
Same (I won't).
>>81851
War is never alone, it has many friends. Wolves and ravens.
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No.81854
>>81852
a surprise? i was only skinny cause of meth and quitting puts the weight back on.
>>81853
i can imagine which one you are saying i wont to. jokes aside, i got offered a job and i need to wait a little for background check and drug test. (its a mouth swab, ive quit weed long enough for it to not matter)
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No.81855
>>81854
…I was replying to the
>i need to lose weight
part
Best of luck with the job Maddie. Man… I don't think I've ever been drug-tested for a job. Haven't been to that many interviews either I suppose.
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No.81856
>>81855
yeah i know, was just making a joke
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No.81857
>>81854
That makes sense, heck I'm drugtested all the time for my job.
You got this maddie
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No.81858
insomnia and anxiety have been a massive struggle. had a nasty argument with a jackass last night, only got like 5-6 hours of sleep as a result. ive attended therapy once thus far. im also on an antidepressant that helps with sleep and i start another to manage anxiety in a couple days or so. that said ive mostly been practicing deep breathing and thought defusion/challenging. "im having the thought that x" then i use logic to prove or debunk the claim. (99 times out of 100 its something based out of emotion)
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No.81859
I'm grinding on these fucking fittings and I'm shit at it.
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No.81860
>>81858
Good job, honestly it's lucky if I get more than hours sleep but that's insomnia for me too.
However sincerely, we'll done on challenging your beliefs, it can be so hard to take a look at yourself line that.
>>81859
What fittings?
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No.81861
>>81860
For pipe
Ill post a picture tomorrow.
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No.81862
These fucking things get welded onto pipe so they can put it together on the field.
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No.81863
had a panic attack for seemingly no reason yesterday. best guesses:
>overstimulation
>needed food
>lack of full night sleep
>gas buildup
overstim has never been a problem and gas makes it feel hard to breathe. im guessing its cause i quit a stomach med around a week ago and its giving rebound effects. it will clear up
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No.81864
>>81863
also fuck this site for being so cucked anymore. some images are marked as "illegal" (they arent even explicit). using parentheses like i just did flagged for spam.
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No.81865
>>81862
3 inch 150s?
>>81863
Sounds about right, taking meds and stopping can cause weird effects.
>>81864
There's always 8 moe.
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No.81866
>>81865
Yeah, bunch of other shit too
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No.81867
>>81866
>Talking to my mother bf
>He is in his 70s
>He thinks you can work for 20 years and retire
He and his generation can't die off fast enough.
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No.81868
>>81858
I'm lucky not to suffer from insomnia very much (but being an idiot, I go to bed so late that I usually get that same amount of sleep anyway).
How was the first session of therapy? I hope it it'll be fruitful in the long run ^.^
>>81867
>>He thinks you can work for 20 years and retire
What planet did this man come from?
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No.81869
>>81868
>What planet
Boomer prime.
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No.81870
>>81868
>How was the first session of therapy?
pretty decent. gave me a couple coping skills to hone in on that i mentioned in >>81858
new problem… all 4 tires on car need replaced, oil needs changed, brakes may or may not need changed, battery may or may not need changed (we are trying to charge it right now. it tries to turn over then quits.) good thing i live in America! im sure its all affordable!
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No.81871
>>81870
car turned on and ran for 20 minutes until i turned it off. insomnia reared its ugly head and i only got like 3 hours sleep last night. zzzzzz
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No.81872
I always sleep great unless it is too hot.
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No.81873
>>81872
good for you, insomnia is a bitch and a half. a living nightmare
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No.81874
>>81870
If you can get part worn tire that should be ok.
Oil change can be around 35, battery though that's like 100 out the gate
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No.81875
>>81874
battery is fine thankfully (got it 2 years ago). im just stressing over having to get rides and not being able to drive myself. it will be fine soon enough. got better sleep last night
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No.81877
anxiety has been pure Hell, had a panic attack so bad yesterday i broke down crying. i dont want to give up though, i want to go and do something. it makes it legitimately hard to function at times though.
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No.81878
Nig to nig nig nigger, niggy nig nig nigger
Been wasting weekend with video games.
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No.81879
>>81877
Fingers crossed Maddie. If I were a believer, I would pray. You'll be in my thoughts at least.
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No.81880
>>81878
Also, what games you playin' Bee?
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No.81881
>>81880
Rim world, playing with pawns that as I want the white race to be (too OP)
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No.81882
Remember to tell your dad happy father's day.
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No.81883
>>81879
>If I were a believer, I would pray
i converted on Easter actually. its been helping me a lot
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No.81884
>>81882
hes no longer with us, but i asked God to tell him happy Father's day for me.
>>81883
God told me to quit drugs so i did. i literally prayed and asked for the answers to things i was willingly blinding myself to. the next day its as if the information suddenly appeared in my mind. it was surreal. i forgave and even reconciled with my brother. i became motivated to find a job and better myself. many such examples.
my most profound testimony so far though? the night before Easter my friend recommended i try converting to Christianity. i, of course, felt reluctant. he insisted and so i gave in. i had prayed to God to help me, to show me a sign, etc. keep in mind i was in a state of rampant insomnia, drug crash/withdrawal, etc. full blown inability to sleep for over 30ish hours iirc? i was lying on my sisters couch watching "The Greatest Story Ever Told" and eventually i was graced with God's presence. it was as if a light shone on me and bathed me in perfect harmony. i had zero aches or pains, no worries whatsoever, an immaculate sense of being. it was absolutely beautiful and no experience ive ever had comes close. its only helped me since.
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No.81885
>come home from work
>Ill just take a little nap
>11pm
Fuck
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No.81886
>>81885
i cant take naps anymore or i will ruin my sleep.
this job position isnt right for me, but im not going to quit outright. i need to pay for a tow and relevant mechanical services. they are violating safety code with the forklifts. guy was driving with the load most or all the way up to get where he was going, and even does this by shimmying the forklift between carts and such that can be moved by the spotter. think ive seen him drive with the forks up which is another safety hazard, and he doesnt regularly shut off/turn it back on as needed.
im going to transfer out to hopefully a cashier or "sales associate" part time position. it depends on what they make me do for the latter, but part time cashier could work. im required to notify management about wanting to transfer; so i can air out my concerns to the store manager about safety and why i want to transfer, if needed.
my direct supervisor is an absolute piece of work. i suffer from severe anxiety and insomnia, one of the symptoms of anxiety is inability to focus. so i ask questions to reinforce the learning, and she doesnt like that saying "i told you already". this has made me feel scared to ask much of anything so i do it when its absolutely necessary. i feel like she may think im doing these things on purpose or something. i was also accused of doing things i didnt do, and when i tried to defend myself she basically told me to stop talking and listen. this is with the context of being 4-5 days new on the floor at most.
part time position is 15-35 hours with optional pick up shifts, no overtime. this will also ideally give me the time to go to church and doctors appointments if im eligible for insurance by then.
today has been an absolute Hell of a day, i had a panic attack at work and broke down crying in the break room. i really didnt want to get to that point, but i did. it feels like i cant talk about these things to my coworkers for fear of judgment.
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No.81887
>>81886
Mentioning unsafe forklift use reminded me of this old German classic
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ja7ap6AEuYU
Would you get a different supervisor if you transfer? I hope yes.
Sorry to hear about the panic attacks u.u I can understand you fear them being judgmental about it.
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No.81888
>>81887
>Would you get a different supervisor if you transfer? I hope yes.
yes, also trips get
i had a meeting with my supervisor's supervisor and addressed the concerns. he was very understanding and accommodating and gave me a reference to the store closer to me. i go in for an interview tomorrow. i can either do the electrical department (i did this before at another company for a bit) or cashier. im gonna try the electrical one. i dont actually do anything with electric, i just sell products related to it and such.
i just drove for the first time in 1-2 years, it went a lot better than i expected
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No.81889
>>81888
That's great Maddie.
I don't work with unsafe people if someone is being unsafe after I've told them once I just say, do as you want and walk off tbh.
Best of luck for the transfer.
As for the panic attacks, I've been meditating a lot to help with mine or I simply pray a bit and feel I can manage.
Hopefully you can find something similar to help
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No.81890
>>81886
You just got to learn to be indifferent to people, man.
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No.81891
>>81889
yeah i pray a lot to help with many things
>>81890
i know. im still learning how to deal with all this. ive only just now started so of course its going to be a struggle
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No.81892
>>81891
well, I don't think free will is a thing so I don't see people as having any agency, so they can't be guilty of anything, I can't really ascribe person-hood to them, and you seem really neurotic so it is probably going to be an up hill thing for you
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No.81893
>>81892
>you seem really neurotic
lol "seem", i most certainly am. honestly staying on my feet and busy all day has helped me deal with anxiety a decent bit. the only thing that sucks is waking up, but after that i can handle it
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No.81894
>>81888
>>81893
Checked, amazin'!
>i just drove for the first time in 1-2 years, it went a lot better than i expected
Very nice ^.^
>staying on my feet and busy all day has helped me
I'm glad to hear. As long as you can occupy your mind, I think that's natural too.
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No.81895
>>81894
well good news is the supervisor apologized to me and said i do really good work. part of me sees this as good exercise, but part of me wants a shorter commute. idk. im just gonna leave it up in the air for now
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No.81896
>>81895
Very nice. If that was heartfelt, it speaks very well of them.
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No.81897
Oh yea, also Uuuoooooh ;o;
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No.81898
>>81896
it was yeah, but ive decided to go ahead and take the offer to transfer to the closer store. i calculated the mileage and its double to get to where i go now compared to the other one. its only part time for now, but i figure this is a better long term investment as i can work in to full time. also wouldnt hurt to allow myself a little time to adjust to my medicines and such. i do pretty well at work, but sometimes i get a bad panic attack and cry/try not to. it really sucks when it happens, but im not going to give up or anything. honestly staying busy has helped me ignore it a lot
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No.81899
>>81898
i transfer out on the 11th iirc
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No.81900
>>81898
>but i figure this is a better long term investment as i can work in to full time
Indeed. And employers also put a lot of stock into your history and seeing that you can keep a job for a long time, if you only work short time it become sus for most people.
>>81899
Fingers crossed Maddie!
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No.81901
>>81900
its 100% confirmed im transferring, i just forget when. im feeling dissociated right now, its really rough
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