I can't stand the people in the city I live anymore. On the streets, everyone looks away or appears wide-eyed like they've been caught in a lie and/or are scared when they're near me. There are old people I pass by who give me dirty looks and spit when I walk by. People charge me slightly higher at the grocery all the time. I refuse to believe I'm that repellent. It's maddening. This has been going since forever, at least back in High School I could avoid it better.
If it is gangstalking, what in heaven's name could I have possibly have done to deserve it? I don't care about being a slave in a totalitarian system, I just don't want people to hate me for no reason, what are they even told?
I want for the rest of my life to be one act of goodness. But goodness comes from within, it is chosen, if I cannot choose, I have ceased to be a man. I feel very low in myself, I can't see much on the future, it's as if at any second something terrible is gonna happen to me. To be honest I'm starting to look foward to it.
