The autistic way to go about it is to set dummy rules until you're good enough to break them. Don't use "ly" adverbs, don't write "he did x as he y" or "his x did y while his a b'ed", purposefully try to start sentences with things other than a possessive pronoun, verb, character name or 'the', use a thesaurus, not to simply repeat the same thing again and again worded differently but because looking at loose synonyms might give you ideas on phrasing, and finally don't overuse adjectives, change phrasing if you need to pile on adjectives like hell. These rules are shit, they will limit you like fuck and you won't be able to write jack shit. That's why they're "dummy" rules. They're meant for idiots who don't know anything and need to follow rules until they get some idea of what is good and what is bad. If you feel like you're so shit at writing and going to whine about it then set your own rules like this. These were my rules for the longest time. Look at someone you admire as a writer on flist or otherwise. Compare the phrasing, use of adjectives, adverbs, and prepositions. What makes you so shit? Blindly calling yourself "Shit" is probably just emotional masturbation from your head falling into the habit of hating yourself. It's not actual self criticism. "God I'm so bad" does nothing, it changes nothing. You say you're shit so go ahead, stare at your shittiness and take it all in, look at it. What makes it shit? Self awareness is nothing but self torture if not corrected with action. If you don't want to take action then do yourself a favor and stop being self aware, you'll enjoy life far more.
Or better yet, stop caring about how you write and enjoy the partners you have. They're playing with you for a reason. You have worth as it is and you're good at what you do. The proof is right in front of you. Do you really think someone way above your league apparently would waste their time with you if you were so unbearably bad? No, that makes no sense. If people like you, they like you. An example is I always thought I was shit at writing, yet people who apparently really hate male and blue characters always played with me. I asked them why and they all gave me the same answer. "You do shy guys in a very unique way". People far, far better than me played with me because I was good at that. Chances are it's the same with you, you have skills you don't even see because you'Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
