I don't know how to play poker.
I don't even watch anime anymore but keep pretending I do. Not that I don't like it now or anything, just not that much. Same with vidya. I just lurk all day, habits really are hard to break.
I've got a mild case of porn addiction, im on my third 1tb hard drive now, and I don't even know what's in there. It's more of a what if it's not there tomorrow? thing than actually watching it.
I fell for one of the degenerate memes and I keep telling myself it wasn't me, it really wasn't.
I made a "friend" on /r9k/ some months ago after exchanging some heavy feels, got his email and we talked a bit but I didn't put the smallest bit of effort. He hasn't written back and I can't blame him. I regret it firstly because he clearly made the effort and I replied days later, barely putting thought in my words seeming like an obnoxious junky, never told him much about myself. Secondly because he was the closest I got to a friend in years ;_; don't think I can contact him back now though. For a brief moment I felt what having someone show interest in you felt like and I miss him but he was an intelligent, interesting and succesful albeit troubled individual while im just a boring loser with nothing valuable to give back. Hope nigga's doing better now.
Been postponing getting a job for the stupidiest reason you can imagine: a crappy signature.
Being a third worlder Trumps victory was sort of a wake up call for me, almost got my shit together in hopes of getting a bunch of cisco certs to get a job. Then said fuck it, if shit hits the fan the last thing that will matter is IT. If my country is going down the shitter then so be it there's nothing I can do about it, at least im not going down alone :^)